gah!

oh its been a while isnt it.

just wanna tell about last nyt. i was effin dying sick like hell ohmygod. and no one reachable. it started at 9pm. i was thinking to go to bed since i know i havent eaten well since the evening so i might end up gastric or sumthing.

but then again, i chat chat chat with my bestfriend bla3 and so on. at 11pm i started not to really 'see' whats on my screen so i thought it was just because my eye prob. so i put on my spectacles. it turn out to be the same. seriously i can hardly see whats on the screen. so i tell her bla3 and went to bed.

so u think i can sleep? of course! no! haha. and my head were like aidonowat. at first i just force myself not to think about the pain. but how can u not think of the pain where by u actually feel it? its killing me okay.

and i search for the painkiller in the middle of dark. i eat 1 and what happen? the painkiller make it worst! ohmygod i just dunno why do they invent some thing to worsen what is actually worse. punya la sakit my head aitellyu. i just cant bear it and i cry my lungs out and i cant actually breath. i fell nausea at the same time. oh god. i just dunno what else to do. in fact before that i did pun on the white pain relieving patch on my head where by it doesnt make me any better.

so in the time where by i still cant see clearly + killing headache, i force myself to get to my friend, i know she's out and i just dun want to ruin her time but i just need some comfort and text her, i end up send to the wrong person. duh. so i did text her and she didnt reply, i text my bestfriend also she didnt reply. i tot she was sleeping so i didnt want to interrupt her. so i was sooo alone ne cry and cry. i call dila just to make sure i didnt send text to a wrong person but she didnt pick up the fon. im so sick and alone.

i was actually weeping myself to bed and tiba2 my bestfriend text me back asking my condition. she was sooo worried and ask me whether i want her to get something or what. so i ask where she is, and she said she's at murni but she can get me something to eat if i want. so obviously i said no because, daa? she's at murni and of coz she gonna ask anyone to buy me a food or sumthn and ask them to send it to me. so x maw la macam tu. but yeah salmah kan, xda no no punya la. tiba2 ja she was infront of my door at 2am in the morning. and she was like ' you look so awful' and yes i am. sakit bha gila. bengkak2 sdh tu mata. hahaha. so sweet of her! thanx love for being there! i really need someone last nyt. . i wuv yu i wuv yu i wuv yu!

p/s: she before kuar tu gaduh lagi dgn makgad murni. thanx for that syg. i love you! i was thinking whats gonna happen to me if u werent there last night. i might die and no one's know. lol